I HATE MYSELF!!!!

i hate myself so much...

i hate myself as i always cant make a good decision...
cant make my own decision 4 myself...
i hate myself as i am a coward person...
although i am not happy with sth or sm1 but i still pretend tat nvm , its ok!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~~
who am i???
wat should i do???
i donno... i totally lost!!!
So confusing!!!!
Should i give up sth tat i love very much even i know tat maybe if i don let go i will get more hurt or maybe we will don have a good outcome???
All are maybe...but we cant predict our future, rite???
so wat should i do?? Let go or juz continue watever i have been now...
離開我你會不會好一點？？？
離開你我會不會好一點？？？
我不懂！！！

moody!!!


emo-ing!!!

My Uncle's Wedding Party

the 20th of may...i went back 2 my hometown, Kota Kinabalu, Sabah to attend my uncle's wedding party!!!! i was os exciting about this...as we all had been waiting 4 this day 4 such a long time...

finally our dreams came true...
he is my youngest uncle...tat means he is the last one who get marry among his all siblings...
i swore i wont miss this memorable n important event in my life...so i decided to be a bad student 4 one day...hehe...ya...i skipped my class juz bcos i wanna go back to attend his wedding party!!!
Oh...home sweet home... i miss my hometown n my family... i miss my grandmum's dishes... super tasty....
on that day....everyone was so bc ...of coz me2.... i was so bc helping around during the afternoon party at my grandmum's house...after that party...haha...then wan yee asked me 2 go 2 the hotel 2 pratice her piano with her...so y not... i went to the Sutra Habour Hotel...whr was the wedding party would be held that nite...
a few hours later... we went back to our house 2 have a quick shower...buti swear although it was a quick one... but it was clean... haha... then we all went to the Saloon...to set our hair n do our mae up... super bc rush!!!!
finally it was the time 4 the wedding party...
owh...i have to say that ... i love wedding party ...
i love the atmosphere...sweet...romantic..n the power of love...
my unlce was so happy on that day.... i could c that on his face...
everyone was so happy too...
after attending this wedding party...feel like i also wanna get marry...
haha...impossible!!! i juz love the feel of getting marry with the one i love so much...
the feel of love... happy...sweet n romantic...
but i'm too young 4 that... haha!!!!


see...everyone was os happy!!!



me n yee!!!


me n my pretty mummy!!!


MUacks!!! hehe!!! thx yee 4 taking this silly photo!!!



me n my handsome daddy!!!


me n yee!!!


Muacks !!! Me n yee again!!!


Qt, yee n i!!!


smile!!!


my pop n i!!!


yummy!!!


haha...inside the toilet!!!!


the wedding car!!!


the wedding cake!!!


inside the toilet again!!!!

Missing u all!!!

i'm sitting in the cafeteria alone now...waiting 4 my class at 4pm...staring at my laptop screen.. suddenly i feel so lonely... ya...super boring n lonely... i had been so stress this last few weeks...kept on doing my assignments.. finally all those assignments for this semester have gone...Luckily.. but final exam is coming soon... haiz... i almost spent all my 24hours with my gong gong n assignments...i din have enough to rest or even do my own stuff...it was a few weeks i din go back my own home... my room was so messy now... no time 2 clean up,..too bc ... YA ... i miss my best frens n tai lou... it has been such a long time...i din hang out with them.. i feel so sorry to them ... sorry ... T.T Missing them here...really miss them so much... i miss the moment we 4 hung out 2gether... i miss the moment we laughed together... i miss the moment when i cried they all be my side n asked me not to cry anymore as they will always be thr with me n support me 4ever.... i miss the moment when we all went to town 4 shopping... i miss the moment that we spent at tai lou's hse... i miss the moment 3 of us gossiped n played inside the room... i miss the moment we took random pictures without any purposes... i miss the moment we all went 4 jogging 2gether...but not really a jogging at all...juz sitting n chatting thr ... haha....

OH!!! GUYS i miss u all so much T.T
sorry... i think the smoke get into my eyes...i'm not crying...
as i say... crying is juz the way i express my feeling....
YA!!! i'm crying juz bcoz i miss my best frens n tai lou...
i feel so sorry to them... i'm so so sorry...
haiz.. feel like i lost them ... feel like i' not belong to the gang anymore... so so sorry guys..
Miss u guys...
n
Love u guys...
♥Muacks♥


Me...tai lou(Olly). tai sou(addrianne), mummy(alison)
during the foundation graduation ceremony


♥Missing my tai lou(Olly)...Muacks!!!!♥


Group Photo!!! Smile!!!

me, herbert, addrianne,alison


Preparing our dinner in my kitchen!!!


oh!!! i miss that moment!!!


Curtin 10 years anniversary !!!
Swimming club!!!







"jogging" moment~~~


shopping moment...trying the colour of lipstick... look at her lips... haha...super red...


the welcoming party for the foundation students in MGC
My 1st time wearing dress in Miri..


yummy...the most delicious nasi lemak in Miri...


haha...3 sleeping beauty...


the nite in Ict lab with them until 2sth am...wat a nite!!!

WTF!!!!!!!!!

WTF!!!!
i hate it man!!! extremely hate it!!!
i hate those complicated n confusing calculation...
HATE IT!!!!
i started my work when i juz woke up at 11:29am...then i kept on working out the accounting assignment 4 a whole day... no rest... kept on working
so STRESS...as we were lost at the beginning.... then we went to a fren's hse to ask ppl 4 help
.... thx god... we understood all the questions.. but one hours later ...
OMG!!! problem again...this time our problem was confusing with those complicated calculation...
LOST AGAIN!!! wat a pity!!!
haiz...
Since it was getting late ... some of the group mates need 2 leave soon... so i juz let them go...
i promised to do the rest myself...
fine...when i was double checking all the work they had done b4...i found that the calculations were incorrect...ok...i redid it again n again...the most ridiculous... i used 2 laptop 2 do my work at the same time( my laptop n gong gong's laptop) haha... seemed like very pro...
haiz...i cried ... i scared i din have enough time 2 finish my works...
i scared i couldnt find the solutions
i scared i would get the wrong answer.....
oh no!!! T00 STRESS n NERVOUS!!!
who can help me now!!!
wuhuhu .... T.T
Finally my gong gong also came to help me ...
he is engeneering student who came 2 do my accounting work...
haha...sounds like impossible....but it was true... he juz helped me to count the calculation n figured out the analysis report... erm... he is such a genius ... haha...juz kidding!!!


Messy!!!


sorry... i was too bc until no time 2 clean up my stuffs...


haiz...question paper n notes...


thx gong gong 4 borrowing me his calculator since...c below...



wat a bad luck...my calculator can function well as all...T.T


haiz...a 500 words report ... sounds easy but haha...don underestimate it...


another analysis ... Excel...gonna kill me


haiz...confusing @.@

Mmmm...YUMMY!!!!

haha...since we had decided to finish all the food inside the fridge before the final exam...so we cooked every nite...and 2nite was the last nite...the fridge juz left a tin of beef...T.T...poor.... then my dear gong gong requested for fried rice...ok...then after our lunch...we 2 walked to DPS store 2 buy some eggs, red onions, n garlics...these were those ingredients to make super delicious beef fried rice... haha... i nvr lie...it was really taste great n smell heavenly... YUMMY~~~

thx gong gong...as he was the one who cooked 4 me again~~~ wat can i say... i'm so lucky 2 have him as my dearest gong gong!!!
♥Muacks♥


Beef fried rice with 2 eggs



Yummy!!!



More delicious than McD, Pizza Hut, KFC,Burger King, Kenny Roger
(i have 2 say like tat as he is my dearest gong gong...wat can i do)