ŵęňđŷ's S3cr3t G@rd3n ♥☻♂♠♣☺☼♫♪: 2009-07-05

Saturday, July 11, 2009

I MISS U BADLY~~~ WHR R U???

hmmm....2day is the 21st day, i havent seen u for 21 days...it was quite long for us...
in this 21day, so many thgs had happened, made me so weak...
i need sm1, sm1 who can lend me a shoulder 2 cry on...
sm1 who lend a hand 2 hold..so tat i wont feel alone...
sm1 who can give a hug so tat i wont be afraid...
sm1 who can tell me 2 be strong...
sm1 who can make me laugh or smile when i feel unhappy n depress...
sm1 who can wipe away my tears when i was crying...
sm1 who can show me his love, sincerity, faithfulness...
all i hope is u can be tat person...
BUT...
WHERE ARE YOU???
whr r u when i was so sad n depress???
whr r u when i need u???
whr r u when i was sick???
whr r u when i was crying???
whr r u when i need help???
whr r u when i was lonely???
U were not thr!!!
i don want others i juz want u 2 be tat person!!!
no matter how good others have been treating me ...
no matter how bad u have been treating me...
i still wish tat u could be tat person...
staring at the starry sky...it made me think about u!!!
when we din sleep at those nites ... we were stargazing outside ur hse... chatting n playing out there... our laughter...
i miss the moment we cooked together in ur kitchen..
i miss the moment when i was sitting opposite to u ... looking at u when u were eating..
i miss the moment when we were laying on bed n talking about our thg...
i miss ur eyes, ur lips, ur voice, ur hands, ur hugs, ur dishes, all of ur thg...
I MISS U SO BADLY !!!
sometimes i cried at nite...sorry i knw i love crying so much...
but as i say crying is juz one of my ways to express my feeling n release the pain inside my heart...
i miss u so much until my tears were dropping through my cheeks..
haiz...am i making the rite decision of giving up...
i have been trying so hard... but i still miss u so much...
i cant 4get about u!!!
i cant or i don ... or i'm not willing 2 do tat???
i donno!!! haiz...

Friday, July 10, 2009

outing with bin 7/7/09

hmmm...staying at home 4 the whole holiday is a bad decision...super damn boring at home... instead of laying on my bed...eating...playing facebook games...chatting...i donno wat can i do anymore...it was a kinda of bc n messy b4!!! as 2 of my relatives suddenly passed away...non of my family members could accept tat including me... wat a trying period 4 all of us especially my parents!!!

after a few days of rejecting him not going out with him...finally we decided 2 hang out 2gether b4 he left sdk!!! haha...ops...sorry...:P haha...i knw i was so bad!!! but really so bc n no mood 2 go out!!! about 1123am...bin had arrived, but i was still chatting with my fren...so i juz let him wait inside my hse 4 awhile!!! hehe...well... then we spent about 5 mins inside his as we were discussing whr should we go 4 lunch!!! finally we headed to the restaurant named THE BOSS!!! haha...i have to say thx u to bin as he was the one who paid the bill!!! hehe...not i forced him...he was the one insisted to pay tat bill...so i had no choice...juz let him paid!!! haha...thx o bin!!! after tat we were planning 2 take photo(da tou tie) together...but unfortunately, tat shop din open tat day...sad!!! T.T...then we decided 2 go 2 sing k!!! WAT !!! tat shop closed again...huhuhu...T.T...wat a bad luck!!!! ok... then we went to Equator to have cheese cakes!!! hahaha...haiz...sweat...u all wont believe tat...Equator was closed too....hmmm... i think the GOD was making a joke with us !!!! nvm...we changed to 7heaven...finally i had my mango cheesecake!!!! haha...yummy!!!! we went to shopping too...hunting 4 dress but i also din buy anythg...he froced me to try on so many dress tat day...i was so embarrassing ok!!! but those dresses r so nice!!! hmmm...kinda regret i din buy them...but luckily i din if not i will lose a lot of my money !!! haha...XD

i had fun tat day...thx bin!!! c u again...